The Final Transaction

i don't have words to explain how i feel
the pain keeps on growing,
wounds don't seem to heal.
memories mixing with reality,
ripping me to shreds with utmost brutality
my life is like a cause without reason,
cloud without water,time without season.
i am confused,driven by uncertainty
in this darkness,i search for sanity
i can hear the silence that screams
everything is ebbing away,suffocated are my dreams.
i can't pierce my tortured soul
my thoughts have taken their toll.
i'm a stranger amongst my own
inside this heart,poison has grown
there is no room left for procrastinations
now it's time to start-"the final transaction"